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I honestly do not know how to explain this because it has been happening to me for years and I am starting to feel confused and even scared
I often have this strange feeling that I already know certain things before they happen I am not talking about dreams but thoughts that suddenly appear in my mind without any reason Sometimes they are so random that I ignore them and then they actually happen
It is not only about events Sometimes I meet someone for the first time and I immediately have a very strong feeling about their intentions or their character before I really know them I cannot explain why I feel that way and more often than not I end up finding out that my first feeling was right
Yesterday while I was praying a quiet thought crossed my mind that I was going to have an argument with my mother I immediately asked Allah to help me stay patient and handle whatever was coming The next day it happened exactly like that and I had to control myself
Something similar happened with a boy I used to be very close to Throughout our studies my grades were always higher than his Yet before the final results came out I told him that he would end up getting a better grade than me He did and everyone around us was surprised including me
Experiences like these have happened more than once and I genuinely do not know what to make of them Part of me wonders if it is simply intuition Part of me wonders if it is a blessing from Allah But another part of me is afraid of these thoughts because I know that only Allah has knowledge of the unseen
I am not claiming to know the unseen and I do not want to fall into any belief that goes against Islam I am only trying to understand what I have been experiencing
Has anyone else experienced something similar from an Islamic perspective How do you understand it and what do scholars say about things like this
Salam. I am getting more into my deen these days, however my prayers have be on and off. I know Allah's mercy has no limits, and I also know that prayer is one of the first things asked when we pass away. I was wondering how can I move forward with this. I struggle to pray 5 times a day, and sometimes only pray 1-2 prayers or not at all.
Hello everyone.
I’ll try to keep this as brief and concise as possible.
I’m a F(apparently we’re not allowed to mention our age😅) from France. I was born into a Muslim family, but from the age of 18, my faith in Allah completely fell apart. However, that’s not what I’m here to talk about today.
I’m posting here because you are my last hope.
From the age of 11 until I was 21, I was under the influence of someone with strong narcissistic and manipulative traits. She was my best friend.
During my school years—the years when I was supposed to grow and develop as a person—I was bullied by her. She also manipulated other girls into bullying me alongside her.
I was an extremely intelligent and hardworking student. My father had very high hopes for me, especially because most members of my family have been professionally successful.
I was also fairly pretty, although I didn’t really put much effort into my appearance.
The girl—let’s call her Alicia—grew up without a father. I believe she was either the result of an affair or of rape; I’m not entirely sure.
She was widely considered physically unattractive and only got good grades because her grandfather, who was a teacher, gave her private lessons.
I should also mention that I came from a rather poor family and was very introverted, whereas she came from a wealthy background and was extremely outgoing.
I’m not sure how to explain this in English, but we met in secondary school. The thing is, it wasn’t actually the secondary school she was supposed to attend. She didn’t get along with the people in her village, so her mother obtained special permission from the local education authority to enroll her in my school instead.
As soon as I met her, I noticed that she constantly had conflicts with other students.
She was incredibly deceitful, hypocritical, and manipulative for someone her age.
But, wanting to “save” her, I took her under my wing.
I quickly realized that I never should have.
As the weeks and months went by, she began bullying and humiliating me. She would throw tantrums whenever I got good grades, forbid me from dressing nicely or developing my own personality, and constantly emotionally blackmail me.
I don’t personally hate her anymore because, looking back, I realize she was deeply mentally unwell. Even though she eventually pursued the very career I had dreamed of—after frequently asking me questions about it—I now realize I wouldn’t want her life at all. I genuinely think she must be suffering internally.
However, the girls who followed her are the ones I deeply resent. Alicia never bullied me alone.
I still remember the mockery, the humiliation, coming home in tears every day while hiding everything from my parents.
Unlike Alicia, those girls weren’t particularly bright. They had mediocre grades and weren’t interested in school. Today, they have jobs, money, nice cars, and stable lives.
Meanwhile, I have none of that.
A year ago, I experienced the worst waswas I’ve ever had. I completely lost control and insulted one of my former bullies on social media.
She replied by calling me a “homeless loser,” saying I had ruined my life, that my father must be ashamed of me, and claiming she didn’t even remember what had happened back then. She even showed me her payslip to prove how much money she earns, told me she was rich while I wasn’t, and bragged about constantly traveling around the world. Then she publicly mocked me on her story.
After that, several girls who had gone to school with us contacted me to ask what had happened. Some told me they clearly remembered how much control Alicia had over me and that what I had gone through had been completely unfair.
However, another girl told me she was shocked by what I had become. She said that back when we were in school, she genuinely believed I was going to become “very wealthy” because I was such a hardworking student.
She also told me that if Allah had blessed my former bullies more than He had blessed me, then perhaps it was because they deserved it more, and that maybe I should question myself.
Those words completely shattered me.
I still see them in my head:
“You’re a pathetic loser.”
“Your father must be so proud of you.”
“If Allah has given them more than He’s given you, maybe it’s because they’re more deserving.”
Today, I have no job, no degree, and I suffer from depression.
There isn’t a single day that goes by without me thinking about what they did to me.
These thoughts are so overwhelming that they stop me from moving forward. Every time I start a new job or training program, I genuinely convince myself that it’s already too late, that I’ve already ruined my life, and that I’m doomed to live in poverty until the day I die.
So I quit.
I feel like I’ve been the victim of a terrible injustice.
Despite everything I endured at school, I believed I could still succeed. I believed Allah would eventually grant me justice through my education and career. I imagined making my parents proud, buying a house, owning a nice car, and one day having those girls see everything I had achieved while remembering exactly how they had treated me.
But instead, it’s as if Allah proved them right.
It’s as if He said, “You bullied her, and now here’s your reward.”
It feels deeply unfair.
I was kind and gentle, and I still am.
They were cruel to everyone around them.
Yet they seem to be the ones Allah has chosen to reward.
I have gained absolutely nothing from what happened to me.
So my question is this:
How can I finally move on? How can I let go of everything they did to me so that I can finally live my life?
I can’t take it anymore, and I struggle with thoughts of revenge.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and thank you in advance for any advice.
Hello friends!
I went with the friend of mine on Friday and it was one of the best experiences I've had. The mosque was a smaller one so I got the opportunity to meet a lot of people and even spoke with the Imam for quite a while. We had a 15-20 minute discussion regarding Islam, the history of the religion and my own personal opinions. Even though I am agnostic they were very respectful and not defensive when I brought my own opinions into things. Even though I still hold true to my beliefs it was genuinely a beautiful experience to meet a group of people who I would have never met previously. Thank you to everyone who gave me comfort and insight on everything and a special thank you to those who dmed me after my post. I'll definitely be back!
(Off topic but my friend is getting married soon in Qatar, his home country, and he invited me. If I find the way to pay for the visit I'll definitely be going!)
So I myself am not Muslim. But I’m meeting with a friend this week who is Muslim and I wanted to bake something for her. Are there any good halal recipes I should make for her? I was definitely thinking of brownies or cookies. From my understanding, vanilla extract can be considered haram so would there be a substitute for it?
| 🤍 ﴿إِنَّ هَٰذَا الْقُرْآنَ يَهْدِي لِلَّتِي هِيَ أَقْوَمُ﴾ 🤍 "Indeed, this Quran guides to what is most upright." [link] [comments] |
Alsalam alaauikum,
I have been struggling with very extreme and severe waswasa lately (regarding passing wind and najasa). Its completely taken over my life. Before,after and during salah i get so much anxiety to the point that i cant even stop moving.The feeling wont stop unless i repeat the salah.
Any advice would be appreciated,thank you.
| Came across these in a book I picked up recently, and thought I'd share! [link] [comments] |
Hello
If I am not convinced in Islam it is just a reason for me I don't hate god I respect god it is not that I put the middle finger to the sky just not convinced but I still practice Islam Pray Quran for the case if it is real to meet family friends in heaven
Will I go to heaven ?
| I was sitting at work thinking about something I’ve been curious about for a while: how many generations back were our ancestors living during the time of Islamic prophets? Growing up, when we hear about prophets, it sometimes feels like they lived unimaginably far back in history. But when looking at family generations and historical timelines, the distance can feel surprisingly smaller than expected. Summary (based on a rough calculation, not a fully verified timeline):
I have not personally verified every single date or generation estimate, so I’m not claiming this as exact. I just found the overall timeline interesting and thought it was something worth sharing. The image was AI-generated to visualize the idea. Would be happy to hear others’ thoughts or corrections. [link] [comments] |
Assalam alaykom
I'm looking for resources to understand deeply how we are supposed to socialize according to islam and what isn't allowed . My main goal is to understand clearly what are غيبة،نميمة،بهتان and avoid falling in them .
I currently overthink nearly all of my social interactions. Whenever another person is mentioned, I become anxious about speaking, and even hearing someone criticize or speak negatively about others makes me worry that I might be participating in gossip or other sinful behavior.
Any advice or recommendation is welcome , thanks in advance
I have been experiencing hallucinations and have homicidal and suicidal thoughts. I was also depressed in late 2023 and tried to commit suicide. I was an atheist for 2 years but came back to islam. When i opened up to my family about my hallucinations and homicidal thoughts they just say “Pray to Allah and think about good things” while i can’t. I have unwanted thoughts about this and i want help but they refuse. I know Islam encourages therapy so why are they so against it? I also don’t get it since i showed them that and they said “Just pray and it will go away”. It seems like they only listen to the Quran when its beneficial to their own beliefs. What can i do? Any advice is appreciated (My first language isn’t english, sorry)
I am going through a very rough phase in my marriage.
I filed for khula in my first marriage cuz my husband had an extra marital affair.
I put all my trust in Allah, prayed istikhara and Tahajud. Astaghfar zikr everyday for months. After 2 years, i got married again.
After sometime I found out some habits of my husband and some other things that made me question everything.
Why would Allah make me go through this? Doesnt he say Relief after Hardship?
How come this is more painful?
I started to lose hope.
But on 9th Zil Hajj, I prayed my heart out. And i felt better, like everything will be okay.
I just wanted to hear from someone who have had a rough patch in their life where they saw nothing working out but had immense Tawakul that changed everything.
I just need hope again.
السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته
I don’t know where to start. From the perspective of those around me, I am a very religious girl; I pray on time, memorize the Quran, pray Tahajjud, and wear modest clothes.
But currently, my internal reality feels completely different. On the outside, I appear religious, but on the inside, I feel disconnected from it all. I used to watch religious lectures and feel so deeply touched that I would cry. I used to make Dua from the depth of my heart, completely faithful that they would be answered, believing that even if they weren't, I was still earning good deeds.
I repented for many things I used to do. I adopted modest clothing, stopped wearing makeup, quit listening to music, and recently, I made the hardest decision of all: I stopped drawing animate beings. This was my major; I used to study it, teach it, and was preparing to make it my main career. However, my conscience would guilt me every time I drew a human. After deep research, I realized it was Haram, so I decided in my heart to quit, keeping it to myself because I lack the courage to tell my family. They have supported me financially for years, paying for my college, courses, and the equipment I needed for my work.
After abandoning almost everything I used to enjoy for the sake of Allah, I began to feel hollow—though I know this emptiness is a whisper from Shaytan. I know Allah will compensate me with something better, but sometimes I feel utterly exhausted. I literally have nothing to occupy my life: no job, no friends, and no relationships.
Every day is a silent war between me and my desires. Thoughts constantly whisper: "Why am I restricting my life this way?" when everyone around me is having fun while I am struggling.
To make matters worse, during normal arguments with my parents, they accuse me of being a hypocrite. They tell me that praying on time and attending Quran classes are useless since I'm not a "good daughter." This makes me doubt myself even more. I ask myself: "Should I just give up? Since I don't feel a strong spiritual connection anyway, what is the point of all this?"
Not long ago, I was a few steps away from wearing the Niqab; now, the thought of taking off my Hijab altogether constantly hovers over me.
I wanted to write down all my feelings. I sincerely need advice, and please please mention me in your dua
"Verily, you will never leave anything for the sake of Allah Almighty, except that Allah will replace it with something better for you." (Musnad Aḥmad 23074)
Just wanted to spark a discussion- did anyone find when they left something for the sake of Allah SWT they noted some sort of betterness? Ashamed to admit but losing a bit of faith, having left something for the sake of Allah SWT but can't see any changes yet, maybe I need to be more patient.
Hello brothers and sisters,
Does allah give rewards to people that sacrifice their life to save other lives?
If one were to for example rescue children from a burning place, collapses and dies due to the lack of oxygen after getting out every child, would and how would allah reward them?
Like, if I shower in the morning, then do I still have to wash my hands, feet & face for the Zuhr one even though I did that earlier in the day?
I came across this thoughtful article on orphan sponsorship and wanted to share it with anyone who has ever wondered what sponsoring an orphan actually involves. Caring for orphans holds a special place in Islam, and learning about the practical ways sponsorship can help a child is well worth the read. Whether you're considering sponsoring an orphan or simply want to better understand this important act of sadaqah, I found it to be a helpful resource.
Learn more here: What Does Orphan Sponsorship Cover? A Guide for Donors
Having a trouble with job search. Please make dua for me, I'm really desperate.
What happens to couple who are not sexually compatible after marriage? Do they end up divorcing? What if someone goes through multiple divorces because of this incompatibility?
Please take the time to read, its long but I feel desperate, alone and very overwhelmed and don’t know what to do. Not trying to be overbearing/possessive/irrational but also don’t want to be potentially neglectful?
Assalamu alaikum, im in my early 20s and my younger brother is 1+ yr younger and has been involved w a nonmuslim girl for a few years now. I remember feeling their relationship seemed awfully intimate (long, very frequent phone calls etc.) but did not push any further, bc at the time I was held back by the thought that if my parents havent said anything (even though I KNOW they were also noticing and curious), what grants me the authority to barge in? In hindsight I wonder if this situation could’ve potentially been avoided had i confronted him earlier, but that’s prob a selfish attempt to check off the “I did my part” box.
I constantly swing between feeling my brother is his own person + grown/independent enough to alhamdulilah now be self-supporting/make his own decisions and worry. And I think the latter has a lot to do w my mom who has become very stressed when it concerns him and has no one to confide in but me, which then causes me anxiety. What makes matters worse for my mom in particular, is that she gets stressed very easily and has told me she cannot seek comfort in my dad on this matter (through any conversation etc.), bc he shuts down entirely when this topic comes up-- so she’s left stewing alone. Furthermore, my father has not once independently approached and addressed this with my brother directly even though both parents treat this as a point of major concern. so she consequently feels as if she is (solely) burdened with the “obligation” to “sort this out” with him since the other parent has said little to nothing despite indirectly making his disapproval clear. And my dad is undisputably more stern and no-nonsense, so it makes me even more confused as to why he hasn’t even attempted once. Fyi at this point my mom has sought out and sat down w my brother for a convo regarding this relationship ~2x, advising him against it.
Ultimately, I know its his decision and make dua for him always. I had a “talk” with him regarding this for the first (and last time) >1 year ago (before either of my parents) bc I didn’t know where he stood w the girl at the time and was curious/a bit concerned and knew it was something that was bothering him to keep hidden despite it being a pretty open secret among all of us. And I truly feel if I hadn’t asked, neither would my parents despite their strong feelings. But by that point it was apparent by context clues and what my brother had shared that he and this girl had already built a solid albeit rocky foundation spanning the course of 3+ years (undergrad). And now, its been a few years since even that (~5+).
I havent mentioned it much less advised him about this again following that, but I know they are still together. I think it became too much for him to bear, bc he recently came out and explicitly told my parents he is still with her and cant not be w her (they’ve/hes apparently tried breaking contact before).
Idk what it is im asking, I don’t have anyone irl to consult and I guess being back home for the summer w little else to think about/do and seeing my mom (and dad) worry about him makes me wonder if theres something I should do, still. Being in the same space w him again, I constantly feel like im missing an “opportunity” to have this chat with him once more or broach the topic again. And even though I don’t think there is any action I can take atp, I don’t know if that’s me absolving a responsibility I still have.
I also dont like the idea of approaching my brother again bc I love him and care for him and I feel like he is already struggling with this despite his own feelings and harbors some level of guilt and perhaps shame, but at the same time it hurts to see my parents (esp my mom) in this “predicament”. But then im also rlly frustrated with my dad bc for some reason, and I think its out of fear of approaching my brother and generally pushing him away (they both butt heads a lot and my brother is the least likely of the siblings to back down), he acts like nothings happening. And that leaves me having to console my mom and sometimes doubting my own role in all this.
As a sort of aside, I also cant figure out how to behave w my brother, either. Things are def a bit stunted and conversations to me almost seem like were moving around the elephant in the room. It makes me sad and I wonder if I should just start talking to him/asking him about her. But then I worry that ill be affirming their relationship/indirectly showing approval/normalizing what they have going on. And this is where things get a little more iffy on my part bc a lot of this sadness is also related to seeing how often he texts her/calls her and comparing it to how sparingly he reaches out to me and my parents. He never contacts me on his own and I never know what he has going on bc even if we do talk otp I feel like its heavily one sided w most of the sharing being done from my end. And ive told him as much jokingly multiple times in the past. I want to be close to him but cant figure out whether we were always this far apart and im just feeling this way bc of some sisterly possessiveness occurring now that im aware he has someone special or if this is in fact a real thing outside of his relationship. Ive tried being introspective to figure it out but worry if I bring it up with him, he’ll understandably assume im nitpicking him out of desire to gain some control over his personal life (romantic endeavors included), especially since my parents and I have both made our disapproval of that clear.
Any advice or general thoughts or even a reality check would be genuinely and sincerely appreciated, seriously. Jazakallah khair
Good evening everyone,
I do not follow what is happening here. I am here to observe for a school project, however I keep getting confused in the switch between Islam and Muslim. Are they the same religion? I’m intrigued and would love to know about your lives, religion included.
Thank you very much!
Sorry if this doesn’t make sense, dont come after me. Its 1 in the morning… sorry if this is selfish or corny
I dont know how long i can keep up wirh this life anymore. I’ve suffered too long.
Ive dealt with Abuse mentally and physically since i was a kid, Been in car crashes 3 times, have 5+ different mental health/disorders diagnoses, dealing with economic issues, islamic trauma, I do self harm to cope, Ive overdosed before, got into my dream university and major but cant afford it.
Sometimes i question if God is even real? he never answers my Duas and he made my life so cruel. I do believe that Islam is the right direction, but i don’t even know if He wants me here? I failed him, i failed everyone, everyone is disappointed in me. I dont know if i can keep living like this, i feel like i would be better off dead. Ive asked Allah since the age of 7 for him to just take my life. I think its better if i just killed myself
Everyone just keeps saying to me “Oh this is cause your iman is low”, “you need to pray 5 times a day” ,”You need to be wearing the hijab!!!” And even “Your a woman you cant do that!” The thing is I DO!!!!! I do pray, i do read the Quran, i do good deeds and its always targeted about me being a girl. And when people say those stuff it just drifts me away from Islam, it makes me feel bad about myself, like im a failure and im doing everything wrong. Now my mental health has taken over me and all i do is just rot away and i barely pray.. I know its bad, i hope he understands. I question about islam everyday now… i love and believe in islam but i just dont know how to feel. I still beg him to take my life :,) i hope he listens.. i dont have much to live for. Im disappointed and disgusted with myself. I failed everyone, i failed myself
Oh Allah set me free, I’m not your strongest soldier. I can’t take this anymore
Asalasmualikum,
My parents planned an umrah trip, and I am still young, so I have a few questions.
Thank you so much.
Salaam,
I have a brother you has an intellectual disability and I'm concerned with how I will fulfill my obligations of caring for him once my parents pass. I have 3 other siblings, but they are not very religious and I do not believe that they will share this responsibility with me given how little they contribute to the family obligations already. I'm also concerned about my brother's marriage situation. He's in his early 20s (but much younger intellectually), he does not have a traditional education or a job (for obvious reasons) and he speaks of wanting to get married often. It makes me sad and worried for him because clearly he's lonely, and is probably struggling with his physical needs not being met, but how are we supposed to explain to him and that he is not in the position to be married, at least yet.
My bleeding lasts for 5 days usually , today it was the 4th day and since fajr time I had not bled so I decided to do ghusl at Dhuhr time and I prayed dhuhr and asr
After Asr I checked n I began bleeding again so I’m not sure if I should do ghusl again today because the bleeding has currently stopped but it can happen again ?? Am I sinful if I do ghusl tomorrow or is it better to do it now (like what if I don’t bleed for the rest of today but I don’t know if I will)
Can someone help me, I've been trying to pray all day but I can't find Allah.
This is my most scariest feeling, when I can't find Allah. It happens when I'm incredibly distressed. I'm incredibly distressed now.
Has anyone had this feeling, when they're the most distressed they can't find Allah? Can anyone help me find him?
Asslamualaikum,
This may seem like a silly question but it was one I was curious about. My understanding is that haya occured after everything that happened with Adam and Hawa. That makes sense, but there are cultures around the world that back in the day exposed themselves far more, and I am wondering why this is the case. Native Americans, for example, often went topless and such. In our modern day we're becoming far more provacative in the way we dress, so did these cultures just forget shame in a similar manner?
JAK
assalamu aalaykom warahmatullahi wabarakatuh,
I heard that the Prophet alayhi salat wa salam divorced a woman, whose name I’ve forgotten, shortly after marrying her, because she didn't want the marriage. If that’s true, I find it beautiful. Does anyone have a source?
The amount of uncles burping and has 0 sense of smell, is off putting
For context my father has always been very abusive all throughout my life. His relationship with my mother was never stable, but it got even worse when he lost his job 4 years ago and my mom became our only source of income.
Ever since i was a kid, he would hit me for absolutely no valid reason, and i would just take it. I’d calm down my siblings when they’d fight, take the punches and never fought back, listened to him rant about how we marginalise him in the family and whatever.
Yesterday was the breaking point. We had been begging my mom to divorce him so we could live in peace, which she never did because he wouldn’t let her, or because he’d threaten to make a public scandal. A stupid fight started between them, which ended in him hitting my mom and spitting on her. In an attempt to defend her, i hit him in the back, and that’s when it all went south.
I’m fully aware that i shouldn’t have hit him, but in that specific moment, it felt like if i didn’t distract him from my mom, he would commit the unforgivable.
He then turned to me, threw all the furniture he could find at me, blamed me for things that happened before i was even born, hit me, spat on me etc etc….
The worst part is i didn’t even cry, i was simply so used to things like this from him. But the worst part was when he locked all the doors and started threatening to kill us all. His threats were so loud and scary that we were all just begging him to stop. The hits wouldn’t stop until i threatened to call the cops on him; so he left the house.
We tried to run away but we found him waiting for us next to the car, attempted to hit us and wouldn’t let us leave until the security guard stopped him.
My mom tries to divorce him, but he’s keeping away a document that’s absolutely necessary for her to proceed, despite him being the one to repeatedly scream at her face that he wants a divorce.
After we left, he texted us and threatened to stop us from going to school (me and my sister are top students and international robotics winners). He said he would do anything to stop us from succeeding in life, and that he wishes nothing but the worst for us. He said he would follow us anywhere we tried to go.
Is it okay for me to go no contact with him? I really don’t want to go to hell but i can’t imagine a life with him in it.
"I have a question regarding Maliki fiqh about my specific calendar.
From June 18 to 19, I experienced spotting after 15 days of complete purity. From June 20 to 21, I had no bleeding at all. Then, on June 22, I had some spotting, and from June 23 to July 1, I had my period for 9 days. By applying the calculation of talfiq and combining the 3 days of spotting with the 9 days of flow, I reach a total of 12 days of menstruation, while my usual maximum period is 15 days.
On July 6, 8, and 9, I experienced new spotting. Applying talfiq adds 3 more days of bleeding, which brings me to my absolute maximum of 15 days of menstruation. As a theoretical consequence, any bleeding occurring from July 10 to July 22 should be considered istihada (irregular bleeding), because the interval from the start of the cycle on June 18 until July 22 corresponds to the period tied to this first cycle.
However, on July 19, my actual period arrived early with severe pain, a heavy red flow, and blood clots. Since July 19 falls within this theoretical istihada period that lasts until July 22, should I still pray or not?"
I am a young unmarried woman living at my parents' house. My mother is the primary caregiver for my sick grandmother, so she has been living with her for the past year. As a result, I've been living alone with my father.
For lunch and dinner, we usually don't have a fixed routine. Sometimes I cook, sometimes we order takeout, and other times we buy something quick and make a salad or a simple meal.
I work full-time, and over the past month I haven't had much time to cook, so I mostly eat whatever is available at home. I pay for all of my own personal expenses except food.
Recently, my father and I had an argument. Since then, he has stopped getting dinner for me. He will buy takeout for himself, bring it home, and eat it while I am left with nothing.
I find this situation very hurtful and unfair. I was wondering whether, from an Islamic perspective, he is neglecting any religious obligation toward me as his unmarried daughter. What are my rights in this situation, and what would be the best way to handle it?
Argument context: The argument happened on Eid al-Adha. We were supposed to go home together, but he drove off without waiting for me. I called him, but he hung up on me. I tried calling several more times, but he didn't answer. I also left him multiple voice messages asking why he had done that, telling him how hurt I was, and explaining what had upset me.
He hasn't spoken a single word to me since then.
I was born and raised a muslim, however, my family was never really religious, it was more so of a *Pray if you want* kinda thing. So I never really cared about Islam. Until I met this muslim brother in school, and he gave me all kinds of lectures and information. Mashallah! His faith pushed me to better my self and research Islam and read and understand The Holy Book The Quran. but now its a year since ive talked to the guy, Ive started involving myself in haram relationships, hanging out with the wrong crowd, looking at Haram things, et cetera.
Now I still succeed to pray all five prayers Alhamdelah, but sometimes, I purposely pray them later, very fast, I know its wrong, but it feels like I cant help myself you know? I cant even bring myself to listen to Quran.
Eventually, going down this track Im afraid I might lose Islam entirely!
So if anyone can give me advice, or a reality check, that would be very appreciated. Thank you for those who read.