Al-Shukoor acknowledges all forms of worship we offer Him. I am sure His angels record all dhike whether it be offered 9 times, 37 times or 782 times. Is there any strong evidence of precise counts of 33-33-33 tahmeed, tahleel, tasbeeh and other forms of dhikr ?
Deep down I believe in God but logically I can’t wrap my head around God being real.
I’ve seen many people say that humans created religion as a coping mechanism because they can’t deal with knowing there’s nothing coming afterwards. I don’t want to believe this but logically this makes sense to me.
I have autism so I think by logic rather than feelings so it’s very hard for me to understand even though I want to very badly.
Does anyone know any podcasts or anything I can read/listen to that will help with my doubts?
I am tired of getting into details. All I can say is I am with many mental illnesses, physical complications, disabled mother, abusive family, no stability, no job, no happiness in my late 20s. I have been contemplating ending my pain forever. I have been crying I guess for more than a day now. I still get to hear hurtful things and how better the situation would have been if I didn't exist. I also may have a risk of getting sexually assaulted which would be the worst of all. Allah has been so dear to me. I always pray on time. Alhamdulillah. Do all the Ibadah that I can in time. But I really don't want to live anymore
Will Allah forgive me? As much as I know some of the unforgivable sins are shirk, magic, murder, slander against chaste women, etc... I don't think ending life is counted. I just wanna be forgiven by Allah for not winning his tests. I hope I'll have enough people in my life after death asking for my forgiveness. I don't wanna go to hell. Please pray for me
When i started having low iron i used to lose focus a lot like my eyes will become pitch black for a long time and i would lose focus and hearing now it happens for like few seconds When doing prayer (salah) sometimes i lose track of surah the imam is saying and i didn't memories it what should i do?
I've got a coworker who is a Muslim and I've been listening to Islamic scholars and imams on Youtube to try to learn what I can. I started reading the Quran today as well. As a Catholic, is there anything wrong with me saying Salat (which I don't know how to do) or performing wudu?
Salam
I don't want details pl..just the source of ur test..
For me it's my husband.
My greatest blessing is my children and my loving and understanding family (parents/siblings)
There was a period of my life where I made terrible personal choices. I was completely lost and committed significant sins which largely just affected me. My journey back to Islam began slowly then hit me all at once and I was devastated by the realisation of the choices I had made. I repented continuously, wept for weeks, and changed entirely. I was horrified and couldn’t grasp the person I was but committed to learning how to pray, reading Quran, fasting, giving charity. Being good to my family. Although it was a painful period, I felt like I was in the light. I felt new and peaceful somehow. This was a few years ago.
Today, I am a shell of a person. My sins are the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing before I go to sleep. Even my sleep is sometimes disturbed. Shame drips from my face. I try to take care of myself physically but hate myself so much for what I’ve done that I don’t believe I’m worthy of even the basic care at times. I have felt darkness closing in on me over time, suffocating me and stealing everything from me. Nonetheless, I continue to pray, give to charity, try to be good. I have prayed and asked Allah for positive change. For forgiveness. To not be defined by my worst choices. But I feel I am still in darkness.
Today, after my prayer, I said I’ll open the Quran, seeking a sign from Allah, to help me understand. The page I opened exactly described my worst sin. I didn’t see forgiveness for my sin in the verse and it made second guess that I felt that my repentance was accepted.
I’m writing here because I can’t speak to people close to me about this. But I don’t see how to rectify this. I have wished I was never born. I have wished I left this earth before committing those sins against myself and the commands of Allah. I feel like I am living a life sentence for sins I made when I was practically a child. This darkness I feel is not normal. It wasn’t here when I repented. I don’t know how to escape it.