For context my father has always been very abusive all throughout my life. His relationship with my mother was never stable, but it got even worse when he lost his job 4 years ago and my mom became our only source of income.
Ever since i was a kid, he would hit me for absolutely no valid reason, and i would just take it. I’d calm down my siblings when they’d fight, take the punches and never fought back, listened to him rant about how we marginalise him in the family and whatever.
Yesterday was the breaking point. We had been begging my mom to divorce him so we could live in peace, which she never did because he wouldn’t let her, or because he’d threaten to make a public scandal. A stupid fight started between them, which ended in him hitting my mom and spitting on her. In an attempt to defend her, i hit him in the back, and that’s when it all went south.
I’m fully aware that i shouldn’t have hit him, but in that specific moment, it felt like if i didn’t distract him from my mom, he would commit the unforgivable.
He then turned to me, threw all the furniture he could find at me, blamed me for things that happened before i was even born, hit me, spat on me etc etc….
The worst part is i didn’t even cry, i was simply so used to things like this from him. But the worst part was when he locked all the doors and started threatening to kill us all. His threats were so loud and scary that we were all just begging him to stop. The hits wouldn’t stop until i threatened to call the cops on him; so he left the house.
We tried to run away but we found him waiting for us next to the car, attempted to hit us and wouldn’t let us leave until the security guard stopped him.
My mom tries to divorce him, but he’s keeping away a document that’s absolutely necessary for her to proceed, despite him being the one to repeatedly scream at her face that he wants a divorce.
After we left, he texted us and threatened to stop us from going to school (me and my sister are top students and international robotics winners). He said he would do anything to stop us from succeeding in life, and that he wishes nothing but the worst for us. He said he would follow us anywhere we tried to go.
Is it okay for me to go no contact with him? I really don’t want to go to hell but i can’t imagine a life with him in it.
