This is probably gonna stand as one of the dumbest questions asked, but my dad always said that "if you're gonna do something, become the best at it". And I'm aiming for the world championship!
I reverted a couple years back, after having had some tough years in prison, on drugs and homeless. And i ended up with s bunch of bad tattoos, anda few I did myself, and I'm kinda reminded of that even at the completely lowest point of my existence and completely inebriated. I still managed to finish all 3 og them. One is a rifle for my fallen brothers snd sisters everywhere i served regardless of flag. Second is a bleeding snowflake, symbolising how we're all unique both good and bad but regardless of how divided we are. We're wll judt gonna melt into the same afterlife and spend it in peace as one unit instead of a billion different drops just crammed over eachother. Stay together and we'll float easier.
3 is a cross i took with to of what was my best friends. It's a cross. Which they later used to promote neo-nazi crap that I stood behind for a while, as a stupid uneducated and thinking I knew everything about everyone. And I became a raging racist, anti-islam, we were even against the ones who had the exact same opinions but they let in Albanians, Croats, Serbs, and the fucking chechcens. And as a Bosnian it's my only task in life to hate most of them. Told to give them a chance which I did. Few days later they show up with Thai girls. They couldn't even be racists without messing up, I was with officially the dumbest people around.
I got out of that crap and changed my circle to the opposite around my own age who smoked weed. And after having been through 6 years of sexual molestation, physical violence st school wlth teachers more or less condoning it, and my only rolemodel was the angry ex-bully victim who became a kickboxing phenom and happened to be with the same club. So he brought me to a bar-hang (one club has an open house and everyone's invited. Small CC at the door we send 80% to charity and the rest went to keeping the house from falling apart. Suddenly i had a prospect vest and life was nice since you sign a literal contract with the club that ypu refuse to touch any substance other than alcohol or "approved supplements" which was prescription stuff, steroids and melanin. Then we went for the Europe run, and my chapter had more cocaine with them than I've seen irl. Even the national president said "Clubhouse rules aren't road rules". Snd the hypocrisy was like a kick in the taint. But scared of being alone and in bad stand (the club will attack you on site. Every single time, harass family, or fine you for the rest of your life".
I was in one the big 5 (Hells Angels aka HA aka 81, Bandidos, Mongols and The Outlaws aka SYLO aka 15) where this id usually how it goes unless you're going to jail or did something big for the club. Then they'll even be as friendly as you like when you're back. And we had a little situation where our national pres lives and someone shot at his house. I happened to be close by with another prospect, and whoopsie fucksy we pushed the wrong csr off the road and beat up some random 20 year olds.
I got 6 years in prison and did 4, 7 years sfter i took the shahada. But the cross still bothers me and i hate having to lie and say "i just liked it"... I know tattoos aren't permissible, but is there ANYTHING I can cover it with to permanently write over that chapter with a brand new one? Send DM if you don't want to reply publicly.
And I apologise for forcing you to read it al, whoever made it down here, you're the kind of friend everyone needs 🙏🏼
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