السلام عليكم،please read the whole thing I’ve been struggling with a severe neurological disorder called narcolepsy, I committed a sin that lead to this diagnoses. for the past year and a half , and it’s been progressively getting worse, and rn I’m at the point where I can’t even get out of bed and walk, some days I’m able to walk and that’s literally been. It’s SO MUCH WORSE than words can even come close to describing. I have almost no sense of reality it’s like I’m in a constant dream, and the symptoms are just so severe like it’s so bad. Wallahi I’ve cried my eyes out, broken down in ways I haven’t before. Everyday feels like the closest someone can get to jahanam on earth. There are some days where I’m able to walk and on those days I pray, I do thikr, I try. But on the days I can’t (most) I start missing prayers, and I get bad thoughts all day I don’t even wanna mention what kind you guys already know. And i would feel ashamed to pray while sitting or laying down bc it’s like I’m capable it’s just like dragging a 500 pound weight from my body to just walk! Wallahi like I would give anything to feel normal again this has been the worst year of my life by FAR. Is this a punishment? Or a lesson? Ya rab. Please help me guys I’m starting to have really bad thoughts.
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