Since i was a kid, i have been diagnosed with autism and adhd, every professional person that was studying me said it, even my own partners told me about that, but my family just don't seem to care at all, except my dad who actually cares and supports me every time i need it, my mom and my sister have made my life horrible, 95% of the bad memories or bad moments that i have been through were caused by my mom and sister, SPECIALLY MY MOM, she keeps saying that i have no problem even if the experts told otherwise to my mom, she has clearly seen things that are common in adhd/autistic people but somehow, keeps refusing that i have nothing.
Every time i was feeling bad or i was having problems in my life, she doesn't support me, i don't remember NOT EVEN 1 TIME, telling me if i was ok, i could look crying, looking like i'm about to have a heart attack, and she will just ignore me with her phone.
Quick context: My family don't care about my mental health and have been torturing me for more than 15 years of my life, i'm not exageratting when i said EVERY single day, even when we are on vacation and everything is good, she will just somehow make excuses to ruin everything.
Everyone says that your mom loves you and no matter what she does, don't do anything, but mine will just keep not care about my mental health, i talked to her calmly about all i'm going through, i was always talking to her good, even when she was doing the wrong, i didn't tell anything and saying sorry.
My family except my dad, just take advantage of me and don't care, i tried everything, duas, salat, asking Allah for this to end, different methods to make my family learn, really high kindness but nothing improved, not even a little, these days i started to behave really bad and today, i lost my mind after something that i didn't do wrong and hit my mom for the first time, she didn't talked to me since that happened, she made me suffer and she is right now thinking that i have all the fault and she has nothing, she never says sorry to me BTW.
At this point, i may lose my mind and would hit her someday because this keeps happening and when i'm in peace, i still feel affected for all these stuff that happened to me, my mom simply doesn't care about me don't even bother saying that they do, someone who knows that have mental problems and have been suffering since being 3 years old wouldn't do that.
I don't know what to do anymore, i appreciate that you have been reading all of this, if i talk this to someone they will just say something like "donT do AnythinG, JusT ignOre and KeeP goIng" but this is a serious thing, this is not something that a mother can do to his son without feeling bad and doing it every single day for more than 15 years, i need help of anyone here for this issue that i have, it's affecting my life and i was being suicidal lately, what can i do?
Thanks.
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