I’d like to talk about this with someone. Will accept DMs or comments.
I am young and female - I will not give my age. I am also western. I am an agnostic atheist, raised in a house with no religious practice but my parents are Christians. I try to convince myself there is no God or any sort without being actually sure. In my head, I always address God as a person/someone. It is troubling.
Lately, I’ve been viewing more Islam related topics. And I feel a pull. I want to learn more, but there’s a feeling that was absent when I was thinking of taking in more Jewish traditions.
It’s scary. Yet I also crave it. I don’t know.
Is this Allah, or me realizing I should get more into Islam? Because if it is, I’m very nervous. I’ve been rude to Muslims relatively recently (in the last month), but began getting more and more liking to Islam as my ignorance has been tested and changed.
I’ve never taken on more serious religious practices. I feel a pull to Islam but struggle with some values I know of, like dogs that I love being impure and Muhammed marrying a child Aisha - and yet, as I read more into those things, a Muslim made a good point. When recording these aspects of history, they never truly had any real idea of their age. They just guessed. So as someone who was raped at 4, it’s comforting to know Aisha was most likely older, and that Allah does not hate dogs but just says their snouts and saliva are dirty and that Islam or anyone else shouldn’t mistreat them.
I’m sorry if I’m rambling, but I hope I made myself clear.
TL;DR I feel a pull to Islam but am hesitant, particularly because of trauma - and yet, some things I’ve read eases those fears I had. Not sure what these feelings all mean. Came here for insight.
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