What do I have to do?

As-salamu alaykum

I made this account just so I can ask this question because I did not want to on my main account.

Around 2-3 years ago, I found out what p*rn was, I would usually just look at it for some time until I got bored and moved on to something else, one day, my mom caught me watching it and told me it was haram, I told her I understood and would not look at it anymore.

For a while I did not, but the urges got to me and I started watching it again and this time I learned what masturbating was, there was nothing in the Quran that said it was haram so I just kept doing it, I think I even broke my fast once since I didn't know that breaks it back then, but then I got caught again, she said the same thing from last time and once again I said I would not look at it again.

I was then caught again for the last time, this time, I lied to her and told her that I was scratching my leg, even worse, I swore to Allah, I don't know if she believed it or not, but she was clearly disappointed.

Back then my iman was not as strong as it is now, I recently started praying 5 times a day, fasting even when it's not Ramadan, etc.

Every once in a while my mom will ask me if I still do those things and I will lie out of fear and always feel terrible about it after.

I recently started doing the No Fap thing, and even though I have relapsed 2 times, I'm not watching p*rn at all anymore and am really trying my best to never do these haram things again.

My question is, how do I make up for all these sins I did? The masturbating, the p*rn, the lying, the broken fast on Ramadan? Do I tell my mom that I lied to her and did the sins even after she told me not to? I have already asked Allah for forgiveness but I still feel shame and want to do anything possible to get this out my system.

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