So I’m not a good Muslim at all for various reasons, some large, some small. I have anxiety and depression, and right now my view of the world and relationship with Allah is not great. You can PM me for more details, I’d rather not reveal them here.
Anyway, I have been committing a couple sins recently and today I decided to stop because they’re sins (obviously haram). I said “sorry Allah” and then decided not to do them anymore. However, I’m not really wracked with guilt or fear. I don’t know, I’m just not moved enough to tremble from fear and cry or to even regret my actions. I did them because they made me happy, but I know they’re haram. So I stopped to get on Allah’s “good side,” but I don’t really have the fear of Allah that a Muslim should. There are sins that I continue to do because I’m not strong enough to even take baby steps toward stopping.
I’m sorry if I’m not making sense. The title is the clearest way to ask it. I’m sorry if this is an inappropriate post, I just don’t have the energy to care too much about anything anymore. Will Allah still forgive me?
And I know revealing sins is haram, but there is an opinion that being vague (and sometimes specific) for the sake of help is okay. I hope I’m vague where I need to be, and specific only where I need to be.
ETA: Before anyone says it’s because I don’t know Allah, perhaps you’re right, but I think I do, because I used to cry when I committed a sin. I know He is my creator (and creator of all), He is the ultimate judge, He is the one to decide my fate in the hereafter, He is the one Who provides for me, Who keeps me safe. He is the the only One Who is worthy of praise and worship. I read the Quran in Arabic and English at least once a week, and i understand Arabic.
[link] [comments]
from Islam https://ift.tt/39UDSit
Post A Comment:
0 comments so far,add yours