Marriage and pregnancy

I am a female and it has been almost a year since my nikaah. Before that, I was engaged for four years. During our engagement, I discovered that my husband had an affair with his cousin (from his mother’s side), who was pregnant at the time and she took pills and abort it. Despite this, they still wanted to continue their physical relationship. He only proposed to me while I was in college, speaking directly to my father about marriage. When I caught him, he apologized and sought forgiveness, and eventually, we got married. Since then, I’ve faced many challenges. His parents dislike me because I exposed his cheating to both our families. I find them disrespectful and lacking in values, even though they pray five times a day. They seem neither God-fearing nor modest in their behavior. My husband gives me a monthly allowance (30% of his salary), half of which I save by investing in gold for our future. However, his parents want that money too. For the past six months, I’ve been pleading with my husband to complete our ruksathi (the formal tradition of a bride moving into her husband’s home), but he keeps avoiding the topic. A few months ago, I found out I was pregnant. Instead of supporting me, he was scared to tell his parents and pressured me to keep it a secret. When I refused, he began insisting I get an abortion, saying he wasn’t ready for a child and that his parents would be upset because ruksathi hadn’t been done. The constant stress and lack of support from him led to a miscarriage. That night, I was in unbearable pain and begged him to stay with me, but he refused, fearing his parents' reaction. He even told me not to inform my own parents and left me to go through it alone. Now he says he doesn’t want a child in 2025 or 2026 because of the ongoing conflicts between us, yet he won’t admit that his parents are the real reason. His parents manipulate him emotionally—his father cries, saying I’m taking him away, and his mother stops talking to him whenever he visits me. Even though we live just 10 minutes apart, he only visits for a few hours before rushing back to them. When I beg him to stay, he refuses. I’m afraid he might leave me. I’ve repeatedly asked my father to discuss ruksathi with his father, but my father says, “You’re already here in front of me. Let them come and talk.” But they won’t. ( also after my marriage he’s constantly having business losses) recently he lost 50Lacs which he’s going through a lot) Now his family is planning to move to another city where his cousin (the one he had an affair with) lives. I feel stuck and helpless. Recently, I discovered I’m two weeks pregnant again. I haven’t told anyone yet because I’m terrified of how he will react. Whenever I bring up the topic of having a child, he tells me to shut up and not talk about it. My mother advises me to stay distant from him to avoid getting pregnant, as she fears he might leave me for his parents if ruksathi doesn’t happen. She worries I’ll end up alone with a child, making remarriage difficult. But I don’t want to remarry—I just want a loving, healthy family. And my parents are really amazing Alhamdulliah they have listened to me understood me and supported me, and I have a elder brother hes unmarried and my parents want him to get married too, but because of me being at home… he’s not thinking of marriage. I’ve complete my studies and not working… I’m torn. I desperately want this baby, but I’m scared of being a single mother and raising a child without support. Should I keep the baby and tell him, or consider an abortion since his family refuses to move forward with ruksathi? I feel so alone, and all I’ve ever wanted is a family of my own. also I have anxiety and overthinking issues and constantly health issues, and under weight too. Please guide me on what to do… Allah should be pleased by my actions…

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