So I have an old Christian friend I used to be good friends with from school. We have been friends for around ten years. She used to make comments here and there to me about how she prayed for my family and I to “accept Jesus as our lord and savior” and accept Christianity. One time I invited her to the masjid for iftar and she was respectful but she started to make weird comments asking me things like if I “had to spread Islam by the sword”. When I would step aside to pray in her house she would indicate that it seemed bothersome/tiring. When I slept over at her apartment when we were in college she would openly drink in front of me when it was just two of us. I started to wear hijab and would feel insecure around her wearing it because she used to love doing my hair and I could sense she didn’t like the hijab. Although she was a great friend, these actions made me uncomfortable to be around her sometimes and made me distance myself from her. We haven’t had a conversation or seen each other in nearly four years.
She reached out to me a couple months ago saying she missed me and asked how I was doing, I prayed istikhara about whether or not I should respond because I knew if I responded she would want to hang out. She’s the type of person who wants to hang out nearly every day and gets very upset if I can’t. I also don’t think there’s any benefit in being friends with her because I feel uncomfortable being my true Muslim self around her. I also feel like I limit myself and have to hold back on giving advice without adding Islamic advice. I ended up not responding to her. I’ve been a little stressed since then because I don’t want to run into her/ have her ask me why I didn’t respond. We live in the same neighborhood so there’s a high chance I would bump into her.
Today, SubhanAllah I randomly had a vivid dream that we reunited and we were going on a walk together. She asked me why I did not respond to her messages. I don’t remember responding to her. Later in the dream I was driving her back home and I had an inner thought of “I did this to myself” with a feeling of disappointment. I took it to mean I regretted reuniting with her. I woke up from the dream confused and anxious that Allah swt was trying to send me a message/I would run into her soon. To my absolute shock, she texted me right after I woke up saying happy thanksgiving and that she has so much to tell me. She clearly wants to reconnect and be friends again. I was shocked that I had this dream and wondering if Allah swt is telling me I shouldn’t/ should reconnect with her. I don’t want to hurt her feelings or make her think bad of Muslims, but I also want to do what’s best for me religiously.
Do you think my dream was from Allah swt? If so what do you think the message could be? Because I prayed istikhara before about responding to her
I know this is long, if you made it this far, Thank you
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