I am 24F currently in the midst of the transitional phase of my life. I am from a underdeveloped country where things will go south in the few years.
Given the fact I am extremely hard working, I know what I want to do with my life but my parents constant intrusion and unsolicited advises are making my life difficult.
I am planning to move abroad for my MS after the degree. Currently I am in my 4th year, taking 7 courses in my uni and also working full time (managing bills of my home, giving some money & also being completely financially self reliant)
My father keep on asking me what uni i have short listed for my masters. why i have not made any excel sheets, i need to look for uni in every country. i understand the concern but everyday he brings this topic & then keep on discussing it. If i say i have forgotten, he says “ u will never be successful” and stuff like that.
right now, i am applying for a summer program in US. he found out and started obsessing over it. now calling me 10 times a day asking random questions and saying answer this in english & behave like its an interview. I mean i have not even got selected to worry about these things. If i say i will speak when the interview date will arrive, he is again like “u will stay here” “u wont go anywhere”
These are just a few examples of my life that i have given for the context, it has become an everyday thing & my mental health is in its worst stage.
i am a good student & plans to do something with my life. But this constant pressure is extremely harmful for me.
I told my mom that he needs to stop doing, she went on saying, he is saying good for you, its good for you and all.
today i broke down because i woke up & he started with this. They saw me & started saying we were joking and all.
i have started to notice that i keep on wishing death on myself lately. i keep on saying If Allah wish, I should die.
I dont know what do to.. Its just a vent maybe.. I am really overwhelmed.
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