I am a 15 year old male, and have been laid down 2 life paths by circumstances. I know it is a long read but please spend some time to read it.
One is becoming a doctor, while other is persuing Software Engineering.
I am very much conflicted between the two. I am a pretty bright student Alhumdullilah so in my humble opinion in terms of addmision i have similar odds for both انشااللہ. I am into both fields of studies. I have always liked sciences and maths, i am even taking extra classes for additional more difficult maths and by the Will of Allah i have been able to breeze through the tests etc.
Where conflict comes is that my parents, uncles, aunts, grandma expect me to become a doctor. I dont really care about anyone except my parents and grandma. My grandma however wont really have much effect if i dint persue medicine. My parents however, i do feel they want me to become a doctor but I have asked them plenty if times and they always answer along the lines of "Do whatever suits you best", "We just want you to become a good human else is upto you", this was somewhat surprising for me since a few years ago they were pushing me to become a doctor. Along with that to me, being a doctor is a great responsibilty. I have great respect for doctors for all they do for society so dont take it as I hate medicine, it just seems stressfull which is destined to come no matter which field just less or more.
On the other hand is Software engineering. It is a field I have always had some interest. But problem comes to that in my country the scope of this field is very narrow, so probably I will have to go abroad for my studies and jobs following the footsteps of my brother. I have discussed with my parents and they have shown support with whatever I choose but the problem comes that when I go abroad I am worried that my parents will be pretty lonely with just my sister who will be mostly busy with highschool at that time. The thought of the eeiry silence just gives me goosebumps and after my brother left for abroad my parents already had difficulty cooping emotionaly for the first month or so. But even if I persue medicine it is most likely that I will have to change cities so it is something i have to deal with and i have accepted it. The main reason I want to persue Siftware Engineering is that, in my short life of 15 years I have already had many regrets. Mostly of not taking chances when Allah gave me the freedom to like choosing the right answer due to gut feeling but due to fear of being wrong i choose the wrong answer and other instances like this. Now in terms of these fields, with just stepping into medicine everything is laid down for you, and a road is already made for you which is a good but also a bad thing, to me this just takes away any control, any potential from you whereas in Software Engineering I will have to build my own road, my skills, my potential and Allahs Will will decide my future, i feel like i have more control and not choosing this road will make me feel regret my whole life that i could have 'made it big' made my parents proud but i settled for less by choosing medicine. And as I told before I already have many regrets and have decided to change myself for the better and just not second guess my decision and just go for my gut feeling because whatever happens after is Allah's Will.
In the end to me both fields are good, with good potential to earn and support my family and spend in the way of Allah. But I have always second guessed myself my whole life and at this moment in life I am very stressed because within just an year I will start my A levels(equivalent to the last two years of highschool), and in your A levels we HAVE to choose a set 3 to 4 subejcts and the universities/Majors we get into depend greatly on them like Bio, Chem, and Physc for medicine while Physc, Math, Chem/or other subejct based on the type of engineering you want to persue. And i have not even chosen what i will be choosing, i feel lost. My younger sister has already decided what she wants to do, my classmates all have already chosen what they want to do while here I am with no end goal if what i want to be. The absence of an end goal results in me not being motivated enough to study, get good grades as i used to before, i feel completely lost.
JazakAllah
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