i have not fasted for years and i now want to make up the fast

heyyy

i dont have any imams or scholars to ask in my area. i tried to write to big scholars through email but no answer yet. I just need an answer to relax because it is eating me up from the inside.

i need to make up for the times that i have not fasted due to;

1. My period every ramadan since i was 12 till now (21 years old)
2. when i was sick in ramadan (i cant remember which year it was or for how long i was sick)
3. being ignorant and not fasting at all because i was lazy, no motivation
4. Keep breaking it intentionally

but now i feel very sad, depressed and i feel like my life is going in the wrong direction. recently i have tried to at least pray for the first time in years and been more interested in coming back and practise the religion again.

But what should i do when i cant remember the number of days that i have to make up because of sickness, laziness and intentionally breaking it for 9 years???

should i just fast 30 days x 9 years = 270 days of fasting . and i quess the prayers will be even more.

i feel very lost and i hope someone out there can send this to someone reliable that can answer it or answer it . thank you

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