I have a friend. I'll call him "O" for absolutely no reason. He's super charismatic, sometimes nice when he doesn't get pissed. Problem is, he gets pissed so easily. Like super easily. You ask a question that's supposedly "very obvious", you get screamed at for a minute. Not even exaggerating.
When we first started hanging out a lot on Discord, I got pretty attached to him. As hard as it is for me to admit it, I only joined when he did, and I'm sure others did so too.
At the time, I wasn't a very good person either. I used to make fun of people a lot, in horrific ways, it didn't matter what it was, as long as they were weak to it. When I made fun of my other friends, they'd brush it off and make fun of me too. I thought making fun of them was okay because that was the usual reaction I was surrounded with, and so I'd do it to anyone. I made fun of O too. Surprisingly to me at the time, he gets mad about it. Super mad. I roled with his frantic personality for months, thinking it's him not taking jokes, until some day for some reason, I thought that maybe I'm just a terrible human? Maybe getting mad is the normal reaction to be being made fun at? And so, I tried my hardest to improve on it, and I don't make fun of anyone anymore. I really try my hardest to not because I really regret it.
I thought O only got mad because I made fun of him. Maybe he gets mad because I keep making fun of him, I thought. After I stopped, you know what happens? This guy starts screaming at me anytime I make the slightest of mess ups in any videogame, he get gets pissed for a whole minute for asking even the simplest of questions, and at times, it feels like he hates me.
Maybe making fun of him brought his ego down, so after I stopped he started getting furious more often.
I thought the problem was with me. I don't want to sound like a narcissist, but it's with him. You have to be up to his expectations, or he will get absolutely hysterical. I see this happening to his best friends. They crack the most innocent of jokes in the middle of an intense game, everyone laughs, he thinks that they're trying to piss him off by not playing seriously and making him lose. He continues to stay pissed about it even after we win. He proceeds to scream at them for minutes, then threatens them by banning them from the game. Either because he knows that his friends like to play with him, so he threatens to ban them if they don't meet his standards, or because he's actions are bad without even knowing it.
Personally, I don't like to play with him anymore. I only join in a call with him when my friends are in. Playing with my usual friends only reminded me of how sweet the smallest sense of acceptance feels.
I always stand up for myself and others when he starts screaming, but it usually involves insulting and not calling him out for his stupid actions.
Thank you for listening to me vent. I know I'll cringe at this in a few months.
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