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I'm posting this on behalf of another user looking for help

Salam,

i am currently doing my final year in university. My father has taken a loan for me to study, but my current CGPA is 3.1.

i feel like he has worked so hard for my family only for me to fail him. I am worried i wont get a job to assist him financially. Guilt and regret is crippling me.

I worked hard in uni, i had no self worth, no self confidence and was struggling with de-realization.

i feel like even with all that , i am capable of more, but maybe i didn't work harder. My grades are mediocre and i also feel like i have selected the wrong major.

i want to suicide and end it all. Just leave. But a friend told me that the loan still stays and your parents will just be losing their child. I dont want to cause them more pain.

I did work hard , but not very( i had foggy brains that left me unable to focus and cant retain any information).

My question is ? i trust God more than anything. Its what kept me alive during my de-realization disorder period . But does allah ease things for people who havent tried that hard?

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