Please give me dawah!

Salaam brothers and sisters

As the title says, I need to someone to call me to Islam and give me dawah please. Basically to summarize it, I grew up in a Muslim family and wasn't practicing until about 3 years ago so I consider myself a revert, I'm 17 years old and I live in the west. I consider myself a Sunni Hanafi Muslim but over the past few months I recently became more of a salafi and tried my best to follow the same Islam of prophet Muhammed pbuh and his companions RA, Ahlul-Sunnah wal jammah. And I was very religious and practicing, like I would pray 5x a day with Sunnah prayers, make dua, gain knowledge almost every day and I would do zikr and recite Qur'an. And I quit lots of things that were haram and sins. And on top of that I have OCD so I would obsess over disobeying Allah swt so I developed religious ocd as a result.

Due to the lockdown, I developed mental health issues like depression and anxiety, and I have been on antidepressants for weeks. They probably developed in middle of Ramadan and on top of that I got waswas al qahri which is severe waswas and its very difficult for me to control my actions and thoughts. This past week I stopped praying entirely and my life has gone downhill. I even have an Islamic book collection that's huge and I would read them a lot in Ramadan but now I just stare at them through the display and I feel depressed. I also started studying other religions and they all seem similar, one God and a system of beliefs. And I don't know what to do. All my life I have always believed there is a God who is the one and only creator and now I'm agnostic, I can't accept or reject the belief of a god. I feel lost and I feel like my life has no purpose, I'm not suicidal at all I just don't feel the same anymore. I tried reading Qur'an in English but it doesn't really amaze me anymore like it used. I remember used to get joy when reading certain verses or even cry out of fear or love but now I just look at it as completely different. The main reasons I used to believe in Islam were the prophecies, the Qur'an being preserved and the signs like how every living being is created from water and how everyones fingerprints are different.

I been learning about other major world religions as well like Sikhism, Buddhism, zoroastrianism and Baha'ism.

Can y'all please give me dawah and help me come back to Islam, I just want to have a meaningful life again, Im agnostic at the moment.

And is there any valid proof that the Bible and torah have been changed / altered as the Qur'an claims? And can you guys debunk the beliefs and falsehood of other major world religions?

Thanks appreciate it

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