I am a teenager, and have been born Muslim and followed Islam my whole life. I try my best to pray more ever since Ramadan, and I read Quran in Arabic with a teacher every day. But for around a month now I have been having this terrible "existential crisis". My fear of death and our limited time in this world grew so much and I keep having thoughts of how it is to not exist. What I fear more than my own death is my loved ones, and I cannot fathom the thought of my parents or grandparents dying. I have had these types of thoughts before since I was young like since my mother taught me of the Day Of Judgement, but those were minor thoughts compared to this. Now everyday I feel this dreadful anxiety taking over my life. Heres the thing, I have never thought against Islam at all ever, infact I love everything about the culture and religion. But in the past week I have realised that I am completely unsure if there is a heaven or afterlife after we die. I want to have faith that there is but my belief of it feels empty. One thing I have always felt missing in my life was a Muslim community to look to other than my family. I live in a city where we have our own round about musjid, my family doesn't go there much especially now with covid. Now I have discovered this subreddit of people who believe the same thing as me and its wonderful. So to all you guys I wanna ask you for help. I feel like my knowledge of Islam is very basic like just knowing how to pray and read quaran but not knowing the in depth history or what the Quran translates to. How should I go about learning all this. Are there any people who went through something similar in their lives? Are there any atheist converts reading this who can help me? I've heard of someone called Dr. Zakir Naik who explains Islam very well, should I learn his studies?
Like another stupid thing I think of is "if there is life after death, why do people mourn those who pass away" I know its a totally stupid question but please guys grant me your knowledge so I can stop being so ignorant.
Oh and one more thing: Is there a r/islam discord server? I would love to talk to you guys. If there isn't I guess the one over at r/izlam would be fine but they are like the same age as me and not as knowledgable of Islam as the people here
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