Assalam alaykum,
I am a revert from a Western country. I was always a religiously-minded person so it was not really a surprise for me that I became more and more interested in Islam and decided to convert. All since the start of the year, I was dealing with the isolation of leaving my husband (this decision was made irrespective of religion and before conversion), who later began stalking me, moving to live with housemates, dealing with lockdowns, working a lot, study etc., then joining Islam. It was a lot at once. It still is.
I sometimes think because i changed some major aspects of my life so quickly, people will think i just went insane and started having a midlife crisis. Many people envied my life before and I threw it away.
I just felt something was screaming at me "this is not right" in all aspects of my life so just realised life is too short to not live how I feel is right.
As soon as I got the courage to wear Hijab at work, my ex started showing up at my work and even told my boss i suddenly ran away (not true). I thought "this is gonna look totally mad to them". Nonetheless, I just kept doing my work despite all the madness around me.
I hadn't seen any of my family because of everything and deleted all my social media because of the stalking, and finally told my brother I am muslim. He didn't understand at all and clearly had the standard Western media right wing agenda interpretation of the religion. Also the standard atheist argument "i can't see Allah so how can he be real" I tried to explain in a reasonable way but also told him he should go to a mosque or Islamic centre for some better answers since I am not a scholar but didn't get anywhere with him.
Also, my female non-muslim housemates try to socialise with me but always seem to involve males, drinking etc. So i have to avoid them and don't know how to put it, i can't socialise with them while they do those things. They act like I'm so weird. My question is why is wearing a piece of cloth on my head considered and praying so weird.
Some people at work mocked me and acted like i was insane when I started wearing hijab. A lot of them asked "is your husband muslim". I said no, I am. they act like i'm more crazy. WHY?!
My parents pretty much destroyed their lives on drinking and drugs and my brother started going down that path too. I see many people destroy their lives or give their children health problems from their lifestyle choices.
Nothing in my religion is hurting anyone, yet actually un healthy/harmful behaviour like Zina, drinking, eating pork, etc. is considered normal? And I'm the crazy one?
Why is this thinking so backwards??!!
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