Let me preface this by saying I am not the most religious, I do not know enough about Islam. That is where I need your help. Also I have been diagnosed with four psychological disorders- Treatment-Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Recurrent-Severe, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Body Dysmorphia, and OCD.
I have a nice car with a sport mode that can easily take me past 100mph, and I was driving at night when I took my seatbelt off and floored the gas pedal to go off of the road, to hit a tree, and kill myself. At the very last second before hitting the curb I faintly saw a kid on a bike, straight in my path. Obviously I do NOT want anybody else to be harmed in the process of my suicide so with the assistance of my very quick reflexes that I am thankful to have I swerved back onto the road. Nobody was harmed.
On the way back home I begged for a sign that Allah was with me. As soon as I finished a few recitations I saw a car drive past me with only one headlight on, the other was off. Then another. Then I went home and my fan light went out, there are two of them so only one was on. So I started thinking about lights as some sort of signal, so I turned my lights off to see if I could see anything. My smoke detector in my room always has two lights on, but for some reason one of them was off. Takeaway is 1111, not 2222. Or maybe it is something to do with lights. What does this mean? Is there any hope?
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