I converted to Islam almost 4 years ago. Let me just say I know without a shadow of a doubt that la-ilaha ill’Allah, muhammadun rasulu-llah.
I used to be extremely consistent with praying, 5 times day without fail. I did everything I was supposed to do. But now, my habits aren’t as good, my prayers aren’t as good and my hijab isn’t as good.
This has nothing to do with doubting my faith. I’m not sure why I’ve slipped up. Probably a lot of reasons. I feel like a mental block I have is that I am struggling to find my relationship with Allah because of my own human limitations.
I am so grateful to Allah even if I don’t show it .. but I’m so grateful and I know He loves me and is the Most Merciful and Most Forgiving. I feel so bad to even say this because it shows that my iman is weak but sometimes it is hard to have a relationship with Allah because I cannot see Him, or hear Him, or feel Him, etc. I don’t want to attribute human qualities to Allah obviously, but I just feel I need some advice on how to overcome this and become close to Allah and closer to Him than anybody despite these things.
I’m disappointed in myself for falling behind and not being able to properly sustain the most important relationship I have in my life.
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