I am 20 years old and all my life I've wanted to be self employed and an entrepreneur. I've suffered a great deal of humilation and misery in my past workplaces (mainly retail). Until one day when I was 19 I stumbled on a small group on reddit dedicated to illegal lifetips and they were professional catfishers. At first I was a bit hesitant so I was only experimenting/toying with the idea. But once the money started coming in I was on a rush, a high that was unsatiated. Within a couple of months I became so invovled and experienced in the catfishing world I started releasing guides on discord and teaching online lessons, this gave me a massive ego and powertrip as compared to being a lowly employee in a retail store. But now after a year I feel sick to my stomach and depressed, My main interactions are with dirty perverts and other slimy catfishers like me who regurlarly taunt me and threaten to hack me because I'm their competition. All the things I had to do and say.... the dirtiest people I have to talk to everyday is destroying me inside sometimes I get so angry and frustrated while doing my catfishing job that I feel homicidal rage where i start hitting the walls. I want to stop I want to stop so bad but the money and being my own boss is so hard to walk away from. I feel so guilty for my abhorrently nonislamic way of making money that I donate my money to syrian orphanages to cope with the guilt but even then its not enough. I need help but I don't know how to escape
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