Hello brothers and sisters, recently around the time Ramadan had ended I have had deep seated doubts of my faith. I am someone who doesn't want to choose what to believe in but would rather choose the obvious universal truth. However no matter how many times I pray, videos I watch, Quran I read, philosophy I read in the end deep down my mind is made up. This made by a fear of dying, if I die am I just fooling myself into believing in God just so I will die peacefully? If so I cannot allow myself to believe it, I will only believe if I truly believe it's the answer. Right next to that deep seated existentialism there is the belief that my faith is correct. That realizing how weak your faith is is a blessing. The problem is I don't know what to do. What spiritual journey am I supposed to take to overcome this? The thing that gets me is that faith is very hard. On one hand if faith in God is the universal truth then it should be easy right? On the other maybe faith is hard for a reason. I don't know honestly. (The rest of this will just be the anxiety dream that pushed me to write this) for weeks I have had anxiety about the environment and dreams related to this. In this one hundreds of people and I were in firefighter suits standing around, then an explosion occured in the distance like a nuke. No one said anything everyone just laid down knowing they were going to die. I 100% thought I was going to die in real life. So many thoughts ran through my head one of them was praying to God to help me out on the other side, right next to that was the sickening fear that there is no God and I will die in this painful way for no reason. This made me realize what my truth was deep down inside. That I have in fact been pretending to have faith and not paying attention to the problem. The rest of the dreams were different scenarios of mass hysteria. Humans scrambling to fix climate change only to realize they have already messed up. I've been having anxiety dreams like this for the past few days.
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