Sorry for those who kept hopes in me. I wish things stayed the way they were. I always wanted to make those happy I liked. I had greatness, ferocity, patience, goodwill and mercy for those under my protection. My tears are the only companions now. Allah does not interact with me anymore. I'm going to die this summer. I say it as bluntly as it can get. I'm going to die.
My efforts hopes sweat and tears have not been rewarded. I am a shy and dignified person. I never condescended on anyone in my life even though I was powerful. I always avoided bringing shame to the loved ones.
Allah if you ever listened to me in my despair I put my heart to you but you choose to ignore me. A servant whose heart was never content when he committed sins. I avoided major sins yet you seem to seek retribution for the shortcomings. I am at the end of my wits. I am not a rebel but I also dont wanna be a victim and a source of shame for others.
You have put me from heights to depths and my body can't take it anymore.
My mind has been traumatized by your trials. Yes I have been overburdened .I leave the judgement to you.
I give sadaqah for the last time since my mind was so busy dealing with problems. Perhaps you give value to my money over my sincere prayers.
Goodbye all
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