I keep hearing about how the world is suffering and how climate change is really screwing with the earth. I know we’re making improvements, but every time, someone always chimes in saying that it won’t matter and we’ll all be dead soon. Which makes suicide seem like a great option sometimes, despite knowing its haram. Jesus IA is supposed to bring peace for many years, but all I see is horrible things. I wish someone would come. Sometimes I find myself doubting Islam because when it says we’ll be “okay” in the Last Days, it seems unrealistic.
I’ve also lost my faith in humanity too much to think I can ever find a partner. Many western ideals just aren’t compatible with me, many potential Muslim partners are actually just steeped in sin as well (as am I, so I can’t say I’m a good match for anyone), and the East has a boatload of issues that stem from horrible culture as well. I don’t think I’ll ever find someone for myself.
My faith in Islam has dwindled too, tbh. Most days, I always hear about something wrong with it, and if I try to find the real explanation for some things, it can often come down to “its god’s will”. Which only scares me. My view of Islam was twisted growing up anyway, since a lot of my family follows backwards and fabricated practices they still call “Islam”, so as a child, I had to teach myself what was actually true and what wasn’t. My own parents were incorrect about Islam so I only had the internet. Coupled with increasing hatred against Islam and some input from r/exmuslims plus Reddit (weird, I know), it doesn’t make my faith any stronger. I want to believe in a God, but the world is terrible, and I often find explanations from atheists that seem nice to me.
And if atheism is the truth, I would see no issue with suicide. Because tbh, I don’t want to live in this era. My life isn’t pure torture right now, but if someone tells you constantly everything will only get worse, why live? Even my sexual inclinations/attractions are something Islam would hate (not actions, just attractions).
I’m just a mess right now.
[link] [comments]
from Islam http://bit.ly/2JHtdzb
Post A Comment:
0 comments so far,add yours