I'm 16, to keep it short, i have gay tendencies. I'm not proud of it, this thing is standing in my way.
So i believe Allah is real and Allah always wants the best for his ummah, and when Allah made homosexuality haram it was for a reason. Now i've been dealing with it since puberty my look to guys always disgusted me, it made me really depressed u tried to search for help online it was just about how i should i accept it because thats who i am, of course i didn't go with this haram route but to be honest after all what i've been through i just think about how could i easy it could be to accept it, after i thought about it i found that even if i liked a guy i can't have a life with him let alone the guy being gay too, as i said i hate myself for it i tried my best to stop this feeling but its near impossible to get rid if it some Islamic website suggested to look at how ugly of an act it is, i know how ugly it is but imagine if it was you instead imagine telling yourself i can't gave any girl ever in your life, thats how i feel every time i see a guy that i like.
And this affected me socially, it gave me anxiety, which prevented me from making friends afer i left my toxic group, thus made me depressed.
Because i thought about coming out gay (not seriously), i looked up what Islam says about Muslims who are gay, i concluded it would never be an option.
Can't kill myself, live with it or get rid of it, i'm literally stuck.
Honestly i feel disgusted for typing this, i hate my self for this, i live this everyday, when i go to school when i am on the internet, i wish i wasn't born.
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