I am a Muslim. This is because I was raised one and I strongly believe in Islam. I love Allah and I want to stay a Muslim. Recently I randomly started to feel depressed because I am gay. I hate myself for it and I don't want to be gay. It has always been bothering me but only recently did it get much worse. I am very conflicted and frustrated. It seems like a never ending fight between the islamic me and the homosexual me. It is almost like there is two of me. I have two points of view for everything to do with homosexuality. A homosexual perspective and an Islamic perspective.
Homosexual perspective: I don't see a real reason why Allah has forbid homosexuality, I understand why for the past but now, with the development of technology and society, homosexuality isn't wrong anymore. In addition, I would be helping the problem of the world's overpopulation and I will also be taking in one of the orphans to raise.
Islamic perspective: Trust Allah because there must be a real reason to why I am a homosexual. I do not need to know the reason, I should follow Allah's word reguardless. Allah is testing me through the prohibition of homosexuality. Allah has created a man and a woman, going against that is haram.
(homosexual side speaking again) I would understand if Allah tested us through making us bisexual, restraining us from men and giving us a choice of being with a woman, but no, I have no choice to be with a man nor a woman. All I can picture is a horrible lonely life. This is making my doubt Islam and I'm scared of the possibility of me leaving Islam.
(Islamic side speaking again) but it's worth the sacrifice, this world is only a pin in the ocean compared to Jannah
This is just one example of the many daily arguments that have been going on in my head, everyday, for years.
I went to the LGBT+ community for help last time and all I got was Islamophobia thrown at me, no genuine help.
I am now coming to the Islamic community for help.
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